If you all don't mind I would like to take you on a journey into my life or my mind if you will. I have battled depression off & on for years. The past few years and especially the last few months have been the worst. I'm not sure I can get a doctor to really listen to me so I am doing my own research into the subject. I want to know what kind of depression I have so it can be treated properly, I want to know if I inherited it from my mother. I have so many questions and I treated as a guinea pig. I'm tired of being fatigued, I'm tired of not being who I really am ( at this stage I'm not sure I know anymore who I am). All I need my blogging buddies is understanding, prayers, and ears to listen. See If you notice a pattern in my stories. I'm desperate for help, I want to beat this and most of all I don't want to end up exactly like my mother ( a psychotic, neurotic drug dependent mess that accidentally overdoses). I need to let the truth out about my childhood to others. I need to let go and get control of my life. My fear right now is that I will lose any of my readers to this blog. I love you all dearly and I don't want to depress anyone else. I just want my life back and to do that I think I need to talk this out with others outside my direct circle. I will start my first story tomorrow, All I ask for is prayers and patience. I need to learn to forgive a mother who almost destroyed me at one time. IT'S MY TIME TO FIGHT AND THE BATTLE HAS BEGUN I WILL NOT LOSE THIS BATTLE NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!!
I'm lost,
Please ask me to wait.
5 comments:
I am here with you... I am praying for you... don't depend on yourself.. depend on Him instead.. hugs!
if you have time, please read my mini series, hope you will find blessings from it..
Sis, I am so sorry you are going through this. You need to go to a psychologist, not a psyquiatrist, because they will just fill you up with meds and not help you actually deal with what's bothering you.
Love you lots
Michelle,
I will put some thoughts together in an email in the next couple of days.
Hey, Dawn, with God's strength you CAN do everything...BIG HUGS to you!!!! I'll remember you in my prayers.
Dearest Michelle Dawn, you have people from all around the world caring about you and praying for you... including me. I'm thinking of you and hold out a "cyber arm" to give you a hug. You ARE a truly wonderful person and don't you go forgetting that, and that is Doctor Graham's orders...LOL!
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