If you all don't mind I would like to take you on a journey into my life or my mind if you will. I have battled depression off & on for years. The past few years and especially the last few months have been the worst. I'm not sure I can get a doctor to really listen to me so I am doing my own research into the subject. I want to know what kind of depression I have so it can be treated properly, I want to know if I inherited it from my mother. I have so many questions and I treated as a guinea pig. I'm tired of being fatigued, I'm tired of not being who I really am ( at this stage I'm not sure I know anymore who I am). All I need my blogging buddies is understanding, prayers, and ears to listen. See If you notice a pattern in my stories. I'm desperate for help, I want to beat this and most of all I don't want to end up exactly like my mother ( a psychotic, neurotic drug dependent mess that accidentally overdoses). I need to let the truth out about my childhood to others. I need to let go and get control of my life. My fear right now is that I will lose any of my readers to this blog. I love you all dearly and I don't want to depress anyone else. I just want my life back and to do that I think I need to talk this out with others outside my direct circle. I will start my first story tomorrow, All I ask for is prayers and patience. I need to learn to forgive a mother who almost destroyed me at one time. IT'S MY TIME TO FIGHT AND THE BATTLE HAS BEGUN I WILL NOT LOSE THIS BATTLE NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!!
I'm lost,
Please ask me to wait.
