Calgon Take Me Away

I'm having a hard time sleeping because i'm scared. I'm worried about one of my friends who is in premature labor right now and we just found out that Randy is on the list to be laid off by next Friday. I know we can get thru this but with the economy and jobs the way they are it isn't going to easy. What all can we do, my job is only part time (less than 20 hours) and it isn't secure at all. I'm trying to have faith but it seems so difficult at times. Well I don't want to bore you with all of our problems I just needed to get it out of my system. I'm beginning to think I will never relax again. :(


*Update: she lost her baby this morning*

Our Family Time Together

This past Friday we decided to have some family time together (partly because I needed to get outof the house) Randy decided to try roller skating which we haven't done in years. We got to the skating rink with 20 minutes to wait before they opened and teenager after teenager came in with no adults around but us. They were running around the parking lot throwing stuff at each other and barely missing cars. Now mind you I had a headache anyway and the more kids and teens that came in the worse I was getting. My nerves were shot and I walked out before we ever really got in. We left and came back to the house to get our bowling balls and decided to go bowling. Randy isn't crazy about bowling but I bowled on league growing up so I love it, but I don't like the commintment of a league anymore. This is the first time we bowled in 2 years and since I broke my wrist last year. All of us had fun and I just missed what my average used to be a couple of years ago. Here are some photo's we took.( Sorry they look blurry but I couldn't find the right setting for the bowling alley).


Our scores Gage 105; Faith 17; Me 131; Randy 131

Here's a video of us bowling. Should be pretty funny.

Shellmo Giveaway

Shellmo at Building a Log Cabin is doing a wonderful giveway this month. Here are the rules as stated on her blog :

Here's the rules:

1. U.S. Resident only

2. Haven't won one of my previous giveaways

3. Must have a blog3. Visit my site: www.zazzle.com/shellmart and select one favorite item you would like to have from one of the following categories only: Greeting Cards, Magnets, Keychain or Buttons. No other categories are part of this giveaway. Thank you! Once you've decided, post your choice back here on my blog. Example: Shelley would like the redpoll keychain.

4. If you win, you will be given that item. If you are the first winner drawn, you will get a bonus gift.

5. There will be 3 lucky winners.

6. If you post my giveaway on your blog - I will give you three extra entries. Just let me know you did so.

7. Deadline for entering is midnight on Saturday, February 28th. Winner will be drawn on March 1.

Good luck and thank you for visiting me! I hope you enjoy Shelley's Nature Store!

Here's what I chose to win from her

Go check out her page it is always an interesting and awesome read.

MM ----> Billy Idol

MM ---> Billy Idol "White Wedding"

This was one of my favorite songs by Billy and one of the better songs from the 0's in my opinion.




Lyrics | Billy Idol lyrics - White Wedding lyrics

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Finally some good news

I have two bits of good news. One Faith is doing better her swelling is gone and she gets a third tooth pulled tomorrow. (She doesn't want too but she has too.)

In this pic the arrow is pointing to the tooth to be pulled.

I also got a job at Olan Mills selling preselling protrait packages. My hours are worked so I don't need a babysitter. I got the dress I'm going to wear in my wedding vow renewal to Randy (The Way I See It)

The color of the dress is called pool. I just love it.

Dear Mom

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Dear Mom,

You died so soon 4 years ago today to be exact. We always had our problems but now that I understand your illness better I feel I understand you more now than I did then. I knew you had sever depression and and other physical problems I just wish you would have told me about the Borderline Personality Disorder. I believe I would have been able to work with you better at the time. Did you not tell me because you didn't think you did or because you didn't think I would understand? I do and I know deep down you know I get it now. I still say you were to young to die at 53 but you have a peace now you never did on Earth and I'm thankful for that.

I forgive you for the past between us on your part. You are truly missed and loved by the four of us. You missed my first wedding to Randy because of me and now you won't physically be here for our wedding renewals, that saddens me deeply but somehow I know you will be there in spirit.

I know how proud you would have been and worried all time for the kids. You would have spoiled them rotten. You would have been so proud yet scared of Gage playing football and how proud of his grades. I can't even imagine how spoiled Faith would be. We will make sure that Faith knows you. She would have loved you had she gotten to know you. I'm glad you got to meet her before you died.

God Speed!! Mom you are missed and I do love you and I hope you have the peace you always searched for.

Here's a song for you.

MM-- Creedance Cleerwater Revival

MM CCR " Bad Moon Rising"
My music Monday this week is dedicated to my mother. This was one of her favorite bands (I personally don't like them). She will be gone 4 years tomorrow (the 17th).






Lyrics | Creedence Clearwater Revival lyrics - Bad Moon Rising lyrics

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Husband Tag

I seen this on Buzy Bee Suz's blog and I thought it looked like fun so I am going to do it. This is the Husband Tag Meme. I'm not going to tag anyone but feel free to do it if you want.

If you are not married,and you HATE men, don't send hate mail.
If you are married and still don't like men, don't send hate mail.
If you are a gay woman, and you don't like men, don't send hate mail.
If you are a very attractive gay man , you can write about your husband.


1)Husbands Name: Randy

2)How long have you been married? Technically 15 years in July but we are renewing our vows on May 28th of this year

3)How long did you date?We dated off & on in high school and hooked back up a few years later. (We married a month after we got together the last time)

4)How old is he? 33

5)Who eats more sweets? I do, I have pmdd and just a sweet tooth in general

6)Who is the better singer? I think he is when it's the right band to sing too.

7)Who is smarter? I think he is (he kicks my butt in Trival Pursuit)

8)Who does the laundry? He does most of the time.

9)Who pays the bills? He does ( I just run them around to get paid. Besides he's better with money than I am)

10)Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? He does.

11)Who mows the lawn? I do. (The yard work helps me calm down at times. I love doing it)



12)Who cooks dinner? depends on what we are having, both of us have our specialties

13)Who drives? Mostly him when we are together otherwise it's pretty even.

14)Who is the first to say they are wrong? That one is hard for me. I say really neither but that depends.

15)Who kissed who first? He kissed me first.

16)Who asked who out first? He had a friend at school ask me to go out with him the first time we dated.

17)Who wears the pants? It's pretty 50/50 here.

Attitude/Gratitude Award

2 to 3 weeks I was given the Attitude and Gratitude Award from my wonderful Hubby Randy of the Way I See It and from Jeremy of Personal Thoughts/Observations from N Ky . Here's what they said about me

Randy said:

Michelle Dawn -- My wife whom I love and want to spend all my days with. Her blog has a little of everything.

Jeremy said:

Michelle Dawn of Rusin Roundup: Just simply because from what I see, she's a great example that a good attitude can get ya through anything.

Here are the rules:
1. put the logo on your blog or post
2. nominate at least 10 blogs, which show great attitude and/or gratitude!
3 be sure to link to your nominees within your postlet them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog
4. share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.
5. How did you get a great attitude and gratitude

First, I would love to thank both my hubby and Jeremy for giving me this award.
Second, before I nominate I would like to think my attitude and gratitude come from my family and friends and remembering things could always be much worse than they are and I am thankful for everything I have all the lessons I have learned so far.

Now on to my nominations. Everyone I list here have wonderful attitudes, are greatful for all the small things in life and in my opinion just deserve this award.
1. Amel
2. Daszzle
3.Trinity
4. Speedcat Hollydale
5. Kathy
6. Crystal
7. Liss
8. Chelle
9. Clean & Crazy
10. Graham

My poor little girl

This past Monday Faith got hurt while I went to pick up Gage from school. Randy was home with her and I got a call to get my butt home now because a tv fell and hurt Faith. She is fine but she lost 2 front teeth root and all her lip got cut and we have to have a 3rd tooth removed because it is displaced. She was a great trooper in the ER. She is feeling better. Thank God it wasn't any worse. Here are pics of her.

Her 2 front teeth

Music Monday --- Journey

MM --- Journey --> Open Arms




Lyrics | Journey lyrics - Open Arms lyrics

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The ABC's of Michelle Dawn

My ABC's
Daszzle tagged me for this meme and it looks pretty simple so here goes..
The ABC's of Michelle Dawn

A. Attached or single?
Very attached

B. Best friend?
My hubby Randy and my cousin Cathy

C. Cake or pie?
Chocolate cake

D. Day of Choice?
Sunday, I guess

E. Essential item?
My purse

F. Favorite color?
Purple

G. Gummy bears or worms?
worms

H. Hometown?
Terre Haute

I. Favorite indulgence?
chocolate

J. January or July?
July of course, I can go camping

K. Kids?
Yes, 2-- one boy & one girl---8 years apart

L. Life isn’t complete without?
Drama between the kids

M. Marriage date?
July 2,1994

N. Number of magazine subscriptions?
1 about to end ( Parents Magazine)

O. Orange or apple?
Apple especially done in a waldorf salad

P. Phobias?
Death & Heights

Q. Quotes?
"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream." - Edgar Allan Poe

R. Reasons to smile?
My son and his great grades and football, my daughter always gets me to smile with all the silly stuff she does and my hubby because he loves me and makes me laugh.

S. Season of choice?
Summer

T. Tag 5 people
Randy, Trinity, Cliff, Graham, and Crystal

U. Unknown fact about me?
I had sinus surgery in the late 1990’s ( around the time of OJ Simpson).

V. Vegetable?
Baby carrots

W. Worst habit?
smoking

X. X-ray or ultrasound?
ultrasound

Y. Your favorite food(s)?
I like general tsos chicken, hobo’s

Z. Zodiac sign
Libra

Need To Vent

First I need to vent on a few subjects so bear with me and please understand if this gets to be all over the place.

My first complaint is Jessica Simpson. I'm so tired of hearing about her weight. She looks fine. Now don't get me wrong I don't personally like her I just get tired of the fact that if a staar gains a pound they are considered to be overweight. Not female can be pin thin like the supermodels who are undernourished, or big stars. This sends a bad message to all girls that if they aren't thin then they are ugly. That is bull, I can say this because I was anorexic when I was younger. and all it did was screw up health. The media needs to get over it and let the big stars be.

Next, I feel that no politicion, actor/actress or athelete deserves a millions dollars per movie, game or whatever they think they need it for. It makes me angry because middle class and lower suffer all the time especially now, and they all think they are above all of us.

Finally , I have had so many medication changes and health issues that I feel like I fail with all my family and friends. No matter what I do I feel alone. and this isn't just my depression talking. My family thinks I don't love them, and I do just trying to get myself back to a coping stage where I don't freak out. I went practically 2 weeks without contacting my friends and none of them noticed at all. I want to let my guard down but when I do I get hurt and / or scared so I don't. I have put our family in such a bind that I don't see much of a way out I know deep down there is but I'm having a hard time seeing it. I pray and pray for an anwser and I don't see what it is. How can I give my love to my family when I don't like myself or really know who I am anymore? I'm tired of the emotional rollercoaster and of this bad luck. I'm tired of being told I don't think rationally or logically, and I'm tired of being ignored by what I call true friends.

I'm also going to say I think facebook needs to be shut down. Granted I made a huge mistake on there but when a local 13 year old gets raped here locally by an 18 year old something needs to be done. That site isn't regulated enough. I regret ever having been on there and I will never go back. I hate seeing my friends get sucked in like they are. I'm losing friends locally because of the site because they are more interested in talking to the guys on there that they meet than me. Maybe I'm just angry at myself for being so naive on there but on the computer you can be someone totally different from who you are and you don't know who you are really talking too. It has been proven over and over again with other sites as well as Facebook. A 40 year old child molestor can play like he or she is a 14 year old and get by with it to get mote victims, or an adult could meet someone else from online and think they are meeting a male for example when that person is really a female, or meet someone who may be a murderer. People need to be cautious no matter the site., but from my experience Facebook is the least regulated and needs to get control of its site. (this isn't about any of my blogger friends)

Sorry about the venting but I guess I needed to complain. I've kept my mouth shut long enough on issues I feel strongly about.

update on my health

Just to update you all I am feeling a little better. The doctor thinks I inherited something from my mom and hopefully a change in diet can regulate it out. My blood pressure finally went back to normal and my other tests were fine. I do have to have surgery on my neck at some point for a lump to be removed but it's benign and not growing. It seems that I inhereited my mom's immune system which sucks. Oh well, hopefully this diet change will help so I don't need the meds. (I'm not diabetic, that test was normal too but I'll watch it anyway it runs in the family).

Music Monday---The Big Bopper

I'm late in posting this but I wanted to use a song that I loved growing up to. My parents played this a lot and I got to love the oldies as they say. Yesterday (Monday 2/2/09) was the Anniversary of when Buddy Holly, The Big Bopper and Ritchie Valens died in a plan crash years ago.. I chose The Big Boppers Chantilly Lace

Lyrics | Bopper Big lyrics - Chantilly Lace lyrics

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