Happy New Year 2009

Well I just wanted to wish everyone a very Happy and Safe New Year. I hope 2009 is better than 2008. I plan to quit smoking and to take better care of myself and hopefully get my Avon and Tupperware businesses going strong. (click the pic on my sidebar to see my web page). I also hope to deal and learn to cope with my depression on a more positive note. I do plan on trying to get a job and get more accomplished. I'm also looking forward to strengthening my blog and my friendships in the blogisphere in the coming year. Everyone be safe and remember not to Drink & Drive.

A Wonderful Talent on blogger

I came across this wonderfully talented blogger via Liquid's blog about a month ago. Her name is Genevieve. She is a digital artist suffering since a child with lung problems. She has beautiful work posted as well as wonderfully written posts. If you get a chance swing by her blog and pay her a visit. Her blog is titled

Spit Happens.

Music Monday --- Eric Clapton

This is dedicated to Suzanne.

Eric Clapton --- Tears In Heaven

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Suzanne Horne's Obituary

I got this from Cliff's blog.

This is taken from the Meridian Star Website

Jeri Suzanne Horne


Jeri Suzanne Horne Services for Jeri Suzanne Horne will be held Tuesday at 2 p.m. at James F. Webb Funeral Home Chapel with the Revs. Joseph Hallman, and Dennis Marks officiating. Burial will be in Pine Springs Southern Methodist Church Cemetery. Mrs. Horne, 42, of Meridian, died Wednesday, December 24, 2008, at her residence. She was employed as a hairdresser. Survivors include her parents, Jerry and Betty White of Meridian, daughter, Isabella Horne of Meridian, son, Campbell Horne of Meridian, brother, Greg White and Ronna of Davie, Fla., niece, Madelyn White of Davie. Visitation will be Monday, 5p.m.-7 p.m. at the funeral home. Pallbearers will be Barry Murphy, Mike Grant, David Medlin, Bo Pierce, Richard Daniel, and Bryan Culpepper.

Click here to to the guestbook for Suzanne

Suicide is not an anwser

Now I will admit that I wanted to commit suicide this past summer and I even tried but thank God my hubby Randy stopped me. I also thought about my kid and I changed my mind. I could not leave them behind. I could not do to them what my mom had tried to do so many times. I physically stopped my mom from committing suicide as a teenager. I found all of her pills and through tem in the backyard and called over family to help me. My mom tried to break my hand to get pills from me. This happened more than once, on another occasion after I was moved out and married she threatened suicide. I went to her house and fought with her to get her to stop. Inmy mom's case she was trying get help but always thought she had to threaten suicide to get it. I made a bold move and threw pills at her and told her to take them. I told her go for it and quit talking about doing it. I then told her that if she wanted to do itshe wouldn't have called my dad or me or othres to us she was going to do it. It totally surprised her. On a couple of ther occassions I got phone calls from friends of hers stating that she was threatening suicide again. So I called the local police department and sen them to her house.
One thing I have learned from my experience with suicide attempts you don't tell anyone and just do it. I also learned that it does not solve anything. Now why am I talking about such a dire subject. Well one reason is to come to terms with my past for my attempt and my mom's (who died of an accidental overdose), but to get out that suicide isn't an anwser. The tough times do go away and the pain eventually fades. It takes time and patience and counseling if needed. Call a friend or family member you trust to talk to. Just please don't do it.

Sad News

I just found out via Cliff's blog that a mutual blogging buddy of ours passed away on Christmas Eve. Liquid Illuzion aka Suzanne will be dearly missed. God Speed my dear friend. I didn't know you long but you will be missed.

Christmas lights@ the Park

Randy & I took our daughter Faith to see the Christmas lights at a local park. Every year different schools and companies decorate some of the shleters in the park for Christmas. Here are some of the pictures I got of my favorite ones.

The last picture was moving lights to music. Below is the video I shot but I wasn't able to get the sound with it.

Music Monday-- NKOTB

I used to listen to the New Kids On The Block as a kid so I have decided to put up one of their Christmas songs for this weeks Music Monday.

Merry Christmas to you all in bloggerland.

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Meaning of the 12 day's of Christmas

I seen this post in Cafemom on one of the groups I visit and I wanted to shar it with you.
Dec. 20, 2008 at 6:51 PM by TinaNicholeposted to CafeMom's Holiday Party 2008

There is one Christmas Carol that has always baffled me.What in the world do leaping lords, French hens,swimming swans, and especially the partridge who won't come outof the pear tree have to do with Christmas?
This week, I found out.

From 1558 until 1829, Roman Catholics in England werenot permitted to practice their faith openly. Someone during that era wrote this carol as a catechism song for young Catholics. It has two levels of meaning: the surface meaning plus a hidden meaning known only to members of their church. Each element in the carol has a code word for a religious reality which the children could remember.-

The partridge in a pear tree was Jesus Christ.

-Two turtle doves were the Old and New Testaments.

Three French hens stood for faith, hope and love.

The four calling birds were the four gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke & John .

-The five golden rings recalled the Torah or Law, the first five books of the Old Testament.

The six geese a-laying stood for the six days of creation.

-Seven swans a-swimming represented the seven fold gifts of the HolySpirit--Prophesy, Serving, Teaching, Exhortation, Contribution, Leadership, and Mercy.

-The eight maids a-milking were the eight beatitudes.

-Nine ladies dancing were the nine fruits of the Holy Spirit--Love,Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self Control.

-The ten lords a-leaping were the ten commandments.-

The eleven pipers piping stood for the eleven faithful disciples.

-The twelve drummers drumming symbolized the twelve points of belief in the Apostles' Creed.

So there is your history for today. This knowledge was shared with meand I found it interesting and enlightening and now I know how thatstrange song became a Christmas Carol...so pass it on if you wish.

'Merry (Twelve Days of) Christmas Everyone

Busy, Busy, Busy

Sorry I haven't posted in a few days but I have been busy making cookies for Christmas presents, I post pics here and a couple of recipes in a cpl of days. I have been cleaning house, getting Faith ready for a Christmas play at Church, she is going to be a baby lamb sitting next to the manger. I'll post video of the play after Sunday. I also had to take Gage to the doctor to get his hand xray'd again and get him into a cast. (he broke the right palm pinky bone). and i've been running errands at some point I need to finish wrapping presents. I have also been doing online training to be an Avon Representative. (I'm also an erepresentative) If you would like to see my page go to http://youravon.com/mrusin Talk to you all soon.

Music Mondays --- Evanescence

This is one of my favorite songs. Amy Lee has such a powerful and beautiful voice.

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How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb
Without a soul My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

[Wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I can't wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I can't wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

[Wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I can't wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I can't wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead
All of this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life

[Wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I can't wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I can't wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
Bring me to life

Happy Birthday Mom!

Dear Mom,

Yesterday you would have been 57. Even though you are no longer here I want to wish you a Happy Birthday. I am slowly starting to understand why you were the way you were. The more I look at your past it all makes more since to me than before. Despite our disagreements I do love you and I 'm working through my anger at you for stuff I now know you didn't totally control. I want to thank you for doing the best that you could and I do remember the good times. I know in a lot of ways you was weak but through that you was able to teach me the strength that I needed to be an adult.I apologize for all the hurtful things I ever said and I know you are still here with me helping me in my counseling and holding me when I have a hard time. I know you are watching over the kids and I know you are happy with both of them. I also know you are finally at peace with everything and I am glad of that. We miss you and Love you . Happy Birthday.

Giveaway at Building A Log Cabin.

Shellmo of Building A Log Cabin is doing another giveaway called a few of my favorite things. She is giving away a small batch of items including hot chocolate, a cd, socks and a couple of surprises. The deadline is Dec 14th. So hurry to her blog and enter for a chance to win.

A Few Of My Favorite Things Giveaway

Tributes To My DAD

Here are Links to tributes on my Dad. God Speed.

Dedicated to all Veterans (this has a photo of my dad and other family in the military)

Tribute to my Dad: Part 1

Dear Dad, I remember when...

Dear Dad Part 2 (slideshow)

Links to Tributes to my MOM

Click on the links to read the Tributes to my Mom. God Speed!

Dedicated to my Mom Part 1

Dedicated to my mom Part 2: The Teenage Years

Dedicated to my Mom Part 3

Dedicated to my Mom part 4

Happy Birthday Mom

Dear Mom

Happy Belated Birthday Mom

Recipe Links

Here are links to the recipes I have posted throughout my blog.

Christmas Recipe (just for fun recipe)

Chicken Cheeseball

Parmesean Chicken

Frankensteins Eyes

Enchiladas

Baked beans (Cookout)

Meatloaf & Waldorf Salad
Salisbury Steak Deluxe & Sour Cream Twice-Baked Potatoes

44 USA Presidents

I received this in an email and I wanted to share this with all of you. This is awell done slide show of all of the USA presidents from Washington to Obama.

Busy and exicting news

On saturday Dec. 6th I had a somewhat busy day. I had to get up early so I could take Gage to get a Boy scout Merit Badge on Nuclear Science. Once a month the boys can go all day to earn a badge. After I dropped him off I went and picked up breakfast for the rest of us. We then went to take Faith to the House of the Christmas Mouse. Faith got to decorate a cookie, sang songs with a talking Christmas Tree, watched a puppet play, got to make an ornament for the tree and had her picture taken with the Christmas Mouse.

After that it was time to pick up Gage and we came home. When we got home Randy pulled me to the side and he asked me to remarry him. Of course I said yes. So we are going to renew our wedding vows and recommit ourselves to each other. When we decide when we do it I'll let you all know and of course I'll post pictures.

Later that evening I took the kids to a local park and we looked at all the Christmas lights and Faith got to see Santa.

We had a great time and I'll never forget it.

Music Monday - Christina Aguilera

Christina Aguilera- Keeps Gettin Better
This is a new song that I heard on the radio by Christina. I love it!

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