What a fool I was.....

Where to start, over the last month I made a lot of horrible decisons that I am trying to fix now. First I lied to my hubby about several things which I normally wouldn't have done. First I lies to him about a lot of my finances. Instead of asking for help or guidance, I kept it from him. I would tell him I paid something for example my credit cards, when I didn't. I also flirted online with 4 guys and sent them wrong pics (ones that should have been between him & I only) to these guys. I was acting as someone I didn't even recognize and I did it all behind his back. Now Randy and I are slowly working things out and I'm slowly getting back to my old self. I have apologized over & over again and we have been talking things out. everything is out in the open now so we can work things out. and God Bless friends like Sindi ,Life is a Rollercoaster. She has listened to Randy and I at seperate times from each other and has helped the best she can. Sindi has done this in a neutral way and I can't begin to explain what her friendship means to me and what a blessing she is to have around. I absolutly love my hubby and I dislike the way I treated him. I hope someday to be forgiven for my mistakes by him and by the Lord. I feel so blessed to have him and my family and friends. I really missed having my conversations with you all. Here soon is my dad's D-Day as I like to call it and I'm trying to put together a tribute to him for that day.

To end this on a good note I got a new job today. I go to orientation Monday for the new job. I will work 6 am to 6pm at Sony (DADC). 4 on 4 off. and I'll be making only 20cents less than I did at the EBBS. Love to all. God Bless!