Suicide is not an anwser

Now I will admit that I wanted to commit suicide this past summer and I even tried but thank God my hubby Randy stopped me. I also thought about my kid and I changed my mind. I could not leave them behind. I could not do to them what my mom had tried to do so many times. I physically stopped my mom from committing suicide as a teenager. I found all of her pills and through tem in the backyard and called over family to help me. My mom tried to break my hand to get pills from me. This happened more than once, on another occasion after I was moved out and married she threatened suicide. I went to her house and fought with her to get her to stop. Inmy mom's case she was trying get help but always thought she had to threaten suicide to get it. I made a bold move and threw pills at her and told her to take them. I told her go for it and quit talking about doing it. I then told her that if she wanted to do itshe wouldn't have called my dad or me or othres to us she was going to do it. It totally surprised her. On a couple of ther occassions I got phone calls from friends of hers stating that she was threatening suicide again. So I called the local police department and sen them to her house.
One thing I have learned from my experience with suicide attempts you don't tell anyone and just do it. I also learned that it does not solve anything. Now why am I talking about such a dire subject. Well one reason is to come to terms with my past for my attempt and my mom's (who died of an accidental overdose), but to get out that suicide isn't an anwser. The tough times do go away and the pain eventually fades. It takes time and patience and counseling if needed. Call a friend or family member you trust to talk to. Just please don't do it.