I've been plagued by some thoughts lately that I think I need to blog about to get it off my mind. First I want to say I am grateful for our new home and we love it. Secondly I am grateful I have a job now (even if its at a gas station) but I am not grateful for hardly ever seeing my family because of it. I close practically okay mostly every night. Randy works days and when he gets off work I go in. I'm usually going to work before our son ever gets home from school. By the time I get home they are in bed. We never get to spend time together as a family. Not by my definition. Randy and I don't get to go on dates because I work every weekend and by the time I get home I'm too tired to care I just want sleep and to relax my feet (which I have had to see a Dr for multiple times now). The time I do get I have to spend running errands and cleaning.
. It's hard telling what shift I'll get. If it s anything like Thanksgiving Day it will suck. I closed the night before and then had to make a couple of things before I went to bed to be at work the next morning at 9 till 2. I then came home and had to finish making and baking Thanksgiving Dinner. I then closed the next 2 nights and opened on Sunday. Needless to say I was extremely tired. So I doubt I will see much family this year on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. So how am I supposed to get into the holiday spirit. Its already tough to get into the spirit without both of my parents here. I guess I will have to figure out a way to make Jesus' birthday special for the kids somehow. I don't know how yet, They won't get much and I know it isn't about that but I want it to be special in some way.
4 comments:
Unfortunately you are in a situation where you have to do it. And you may be whipping yourself unfairly over this.
I have been in the situation where I've not been home as often as I've wanted due to working a second job and I may find myself in this again. And it's certainly no crime to care about your family.
The fact that you are willing to work this shows that you want to improve your situation, and I'm sure that this won't be a permanent thing for you.
I'm also sure that your family will understand and respect you for doing this.
Gee...that's tough when you have to do it this way...but then again you need the money. I DO hope that things will improve...either you will get a better job later on or something else comes up that makes everything better.
HUGE HUGS!!!!
I find myself with thoughts just like yours, but the alterative of NOT working is all to common now. I think it always looks better on the other side of the fence??
My last decade has been one long work day, but here I am, still cooking along. If anything, it makes you appreciate and use what time you have wisely. Some people ... all they have is time. They are never very happy.
Big hugs from old SpeedyCat :-)
Cliff --- Thank you for the comments I hope it improves soon but I will have to endure for now.
Amel --- It sucks and we do need the money. Oh well slowly our luck is improving I'm trying to be more positive.
Eric --- We defiantly do try to enjoy what time we do see one another wisely but it is better than not working at all.
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