Dear Mom,
You died so soon 4 years ago today to be exact. We always had our problems but now that I understand your illness better I feel I understand you more now than I did then. I knew you had sever depression and and other physical problems I just wish you would have told me about the Borderline Personality Disorder. I believe I would have been able to work with you better at the time. Did you not tell me because you didn't think you did or because you didn't think I would understand? I do and I know deep down you know I get it now. I still say you were to young to die at 53 but you have a peace now you never did on Earth and I'm thankful for that.
. We always had our problems but now that I understand your illness better I feel I understand you more now than I did then. I knew you had sever depression and and other physical problems I just wish you would have told me about the Borderline Personality Disorder. I believe I would have been able to work with you better at the time. Did you not tell me because you didn't think you did or because you didn't think I would understand? I do and I know deep down you know I get it now. I still say you were to young to die at 53 but you have a peace now you never did on Earth and I'm thankful for that. I forgive you for the past between us on your part. You are truly missed and loved by the four of us. You missed my first wedding to Randy because of me and now you won't physically be here for our wedding renewals, that saddens me deeply but somehow I know you will be there in spirit.
I know how proud you would have been and worried all time for the kids. You would have spoiled them rotten. You would have been so proud yet scared of Gage playing football and how proud of his grades. I can't even imagine how spoiled Faith would be. We will make sure that Faith knows you. She would have loved you had she gotten to know you. I'm glad you got to meet her before you died.
God Speed!! Mom you are missed and I do love you and I hope you have the peace you always searched for.
Here's a song for you.
5 comments:
A nice tribute to your mom.
good post baby.
what a beautiful tribute, i am sorry for your loss. i miss my mom too, thanks for the song it was such a great touch
It's hard to lose a parent at any age. I think your mother is in a better place looking down saying she's proud of the fact that you are working to better your life everyday. She would also be proud of the tribute and the effort you put into it.
It will be 5 years in April since I lost my mom and I still miss her. I wish she could see my grandchildren. She would love all three of them.
Michelle,
This is a lovely and heart-felt tribute to your mom... I know you loved her and it's really hard to lose a parent, as Cliff said, at any age. We both lost our moms 4 years ago! It's still very sad for me... and I miss my mom dearly... They're looking down on us and smiling widely!
God bless you!
Leesa
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