What a fool I was.....

Where to start, over the last month I made a lot of horrible decisons that I am trying to fix now. First I lied to my hubby about several things which I normally wouldn't have done. First I lies to him about a lot of my finances. Instead of asking for help or guidance, I kept it from him. I would tell him I paid something for example my credit cards, when I didn't. I also flirted online with 4 guys and sent them wrong pics (ones that should have been between him & I only) to these guys. I was acting as someone I didn't even recognize and I did it all behind his back. Now Randy and I are slowly working things out and I'm slowly getting back to my old self. I have apologized over & over again and we have been talking things out. everything is out in the open now so we can work things out. and God Bless friends like Sindi ,Life is a Rollercoaster. She has listened to Randy and I at seperate times from each other and has helped the best she can. Sindi has done this in a neutral way and I can't begin to explain what her friendship means to me and what a blessing she is to have around. I absolutly love my hubby and I dislike the way I treated him. I hope someday to be forgiven for my mistakes by him and by the Lord. I feel so blessed to have him and my family and friends. I really missed having my conversations with you all. Here soon is my dad's D-Day as I like to call it and I'm trying to put together a tribute to him for that day.

To end this on a good note I got a new job today. I go to orientation Monday for the new job. I will work 6 am to 6pm at Sony (DADC). 4 on 4 off. and I'll be making only 20cents less than I did at the EBBS. Love to all. God Bless!

What's been going on.....

Well where do I start, a lot has been going with me lately and not all of it good. My emotions are still up in a whirlwind but i think I am strating to get control somewhat. I guess I'll start with my job situation. I quit the E.B.B.S (evil big box store) otherwise known as Wal~Mart. I pointed out and was given the choice to choose between my job and my family, as you can tell I chose my family. I didn't work for 3 weeks but I got a part time job through a temp. service on our local college campus in the commons at Einstein Brothers Bagels. I miss the pay but the stress is gone in a sense that I don't stress out because of my job now I stress out over the bills. My hubby is trying to pay all the bills and I'm trying to do what I can but I need a better job. I feel so guilty over this because I caused a lot of financial trouble with my credit cards and paying bills late and other things like that. I got stupid with the finances on my part because of my grieving over my parents and I made several bad decisons, and now I'm trying to fix it.

Also over the last 2 weeks started going back to church. I still struggle with my faith but I hope to get back on the right path. I attend Centenary United Methodist Church. I was amazed at how long I didn't go that I was welcomed as if I never left. (it's been approx. 1 year since I attended). I did notice that while at the church service I felt a peace that i hadn't felt in a long time. Maybe I do need to go and maybe I will find my way back from all the pain over the last few years. Here are photos of the inside of the church I attend .

Finally for this post my son Gage started playing for the 6th grade football team. He is number 53. He plays wide reciever and tight end. Here are pics of him and his team .

BAAAACCCKKKK!!!!

Hey all I finally got back online and I will update you all on whats been happening soon. Love to you all!

Temp. Gone

I am currently without internet till Sept. 3rd. Keep coming back I'll be back soon.

Photos from camping

Over the weekend we went camping one of my favorite things to do. While there I decided to try to get some nature shots, heres what I got.

I think I'm finally getting the settings down on my camera LOL :)

The lake reflection is probably my favorite. Hope you enjoyed have a wonderful day!

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