The ABC's of Michelle Dawn

My ABC's
Daszzle tagged me for this meme and it looks pretty simple so here goes..
The ABC's of Michelle Dawn

A. Attached or single?
Very attached

B. Best friend?
My hubby Randy and my cousin Cathy

C. Cake or pie?
Chocolate cake

D. Day of Choice?
Sunday, I guess

E. Essential item?
My purse

F. Favorite color?
Purple

G. Gummy bears or worms?
worms

H. Hometown?
Terre Haute

I. Favorite indulgence?
chocolate

J. January or July?
July of course, I can go camping

K. Kids?
Yes, 2-- one boy & one girl---8 years apart

L. Life isn’t complete without?
Drama between the kids

M. Marriage date?
July 2,1994

N. Number of magazine subscriptions?
1 about to end ( Parents Magazine)

O. Orange or apple?
Apple especially done in a waldorf salad

P. Phobias?
Death & Heights

Q. Quotes?
"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream." - Edgar Allan Poe

R. Reasons to smile?
My son and his great grades and football, my daughter always gets me to smile with all the silly stuff she does and my hubby because he loves me and makes me laugh.

S. Season of choice?
Summer

T. Tag 5 people
Randy, Trinity, Cliff, Graham, and Crystal

U. Unknown fact about me?
I had sinus surgery in the late 1990’s ( around the time of OJ Simpson).

V. Vegetable?
Baby carrots

W. Worst habit?
smoking

X. X-ray or ultrasound?
ultrasound

Y. Your favorite food(s)?
I like general tsos chicken, hobo’s

Z. Zodiac sign
Libra

Need To Vent

First I need to vent on a few subjects so bear with me and please understand if this gets to be all over the place.

My first complaint is Jessica Simpson. I'm so tired of hearing about her weight. She looks fine. Now don't get me wrong I don't personally like her I just get tired of the fact that if a staar gains a pound they are considered to be overweight. Not female can be pin thin like the supermodels who are undernourished, or big stars. This sends a bad message to all girls that if they aren't thin then they are ugly. That is bull, I can say this because I was anorexic when I was younger. and all it did was screw up health. The media needs to get over it and let the big stars be.

Next, I feel that no politicion, actor/actress or athelete deserves a millions dollars per movie, game or whatever they think they need it for. It makes me angry because middle class and lower suffer all the time especially now, and they all think they are above all of us.

Finally , I have had so many medication changes and health issues that I feel like I fail with all my family and friends. No matter what I do I feel alone. and this isn't just my depression talking. My family thinks I don't love them, and I do just trying to get myself back to a coping stage where I don't freak out. I went practically 2 weeks without contacting my friends and none of them noticed at all. I want to let my guard down but when I do I get hurt and / or scared so I don't. I have put our family in such a bind that I don't see much of a way out I know deep down there is but I'm having a hard time seeing it. I pray and pray for an anwser and I don't see what it is. How can I give my love to my family when I don't like myself or really know who I am anymore? I'm tired of the emotional rollercoaster and of this bad luck. I'm tired of being told I don't think rationally or logically, and I'm tired of being ignored by what I call true friends.

I'm also going to say I think facebook needs to be shut down. Granted I made a huge mistake on there but when a local 13 year old gets raped here locally by an 18 year old something needs to be done. That site isn't regulated enough. I regret ever having been on there and I will never go back. I hate seeing my friends get sucked in like they are. I'm losing friends locally because of the site because they are more interested in talking to the guys on there that they meet than me. Maybe I'm just angry at myself for being so naive on there but on the computer you can be someone totally different from who you are and you don't know who you are really talking too. It has been proven over and over again with other sites as well as Facebook. A 40 year old child molestor can play like he or she is a 14 year old and get by with it to get mote victims, or an adult could meet someone else from online and think they are meeting a male for example when that person is really a female, or meet someone who may be a murderer. People need to be cautious no matter the site., but from my experience Facebook is the least regulated and needs to get control of its site. (this isn't about any of my blogger friends)

Sorry about the venting but I guess I needed to complain. I've kept my mouth shut long enough on issues I feel strongly about.

update on my health

Just to update you all I am feeling a little better. The doctor thinks I inherited something from my mom and hopefully a change in diet can regulate it out. My blood pressure finally went back to normal and my other tests were fine. I do have to have surgery on my neck at some point for a lump to be removed but it's benign and not growing. It seems that I inhereited my mom's immune system which sucks. Oh well, hopefully this diet change will help so I don't need the meds. (I'm not diabetic, that test was normal too but I'll watch it anyway it runs in the family).

Music Monday---The Big Bopper

I'm late in posting this but I wanted to use a song that I loved growing up to. My parents played this a lot and I got to love the oldies as they say. Yesterday (Monday 2/2/09) was the Anniversary of when Buddy Holly, The Big Bopper and Ritchie Valens died in a plan crash years ago.. I chose The Big Boppers Chantilly Lace

Lyrics | Bopper Big lyrics - Chantilly Lace lyrics

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Snow in Terre Haute!

Well I still don't know what is wrong with me I decided to outside in the snow and find my inner child. Okay I just wrote in the snow but it was a good distraction. I had fun writing in the snow some of my blog buddies names. Here they are.

From the big snowfall here we ended up with 10 inches of snow total. We haven't had this much snow in a long time. Here are some of the pics I took and look at the size of some of the icicles.

This is looking down our street.

Local business on the southend of town.

The sidewalk in front of our house before I shoveled.

Might be down a few days.(Update in red)

I have been going to the doctor alot this past few weeks to see what is wrong with me. Hopefully after this next doctors appt. I will know for sure what is going on. I will try to keep posting and visiting but I may be down a few days. Just wanted to fill you in. God Bless!.


I went to another doctor today(Wednesday) and I have to go back Friday for a test. Still not sure what is going on. I'll keep you posted.